Thursday, December 13, 2007

刘玉波与我


丹斯里刘玉波一九一七年生於中国广东潮安归湖乡,十九岁南来北婆罗洲,在山打根埠商行任职,三年后移居斗湖,与朋友合创 "胜成"号,经营杂货.第二次世界大战结束后,自创"合成公司",经营木业,业务蒸蒸日上,享有"沙巴木材大王"美誉.嗣后宏图大展,生意多样化, 且开拓到海外,而富甲一方.

丹斯里刘晚年设立了刘玉波基金,捐献慈善机构,学校团体及各族寺庙.丹斯里在乡团,社团,都很活跃,由一九七二起至一九八三年担任亜庇潮州公会理事长,一九八二年至今担任亜庇德教会紫瑞阁阁长,并被礼聘为马来西亚潮州公会联合会名誉主席,贡献良多,深受政府嘉许和各族景仰,屡获国家及州元首表扬.于一九六五年至二零零零年先后获颁ADK, PPM 勋章,拿督(PGDK),拿督斯里邦里玛(SPDK)及丹斯里(PSM)勋衔,二零零三年荣获沙巴中华大会堂颁发华社最高荣衔"社会贡献钻石奖"

初识丹斯里刘时,我还是个住在乡下的小孩子,跟父亲或祖母到埠上,逗留在亲友店里, 以沈华成, 保成号,万有号,合成等居多.据丹斯里刘说,祖母在一九五十年代看潮剧时,就夜宿他家,而我则跟着祖母免费看潮剧.在我记忆中,我们多住宿万有号.也许也寄住合成,但记忆颇模糊.

丹斯里刘年纪比我母亲长,我们向以叔辈称呼. 他娶了我们本家的一位宗姐为妻,也没有改变我们对他的称呼.

在乡下小学念书时, 有位翁我音老先生赏识我,献议我爸爸把我过继给他. 我爸爸虽然多子,大概不舍得我,此事议而不结,不了了之.丹斯里刘则建议让我到市区潮州人办的新华小学念书,也没结果.当时,新华的成绩比我就读的中华要好.

长大后,我大哥租合成的的汽油站经营汽车服务业,我三弟服务于合成数十年.丹斯里刘玉波成立刘玉波基金,邀我任董事,至今也好几年了. 记得在一九八十几年, 拿督林源心贵为华人最高政治领袖时,曾建议丹斯里刘设立基金会,真是高瞻远瞩.

就我所知,丹斯里刘玉波 有许多过人之处.首先,他是白手兴家的商业奇才.我初认识他时,他只拥有斗湖市区临海的一间亚答屋店, 而此店也在五十年代给火烧了;但到了七十年代,合成已是一间大公司了.其二,他写得一手好字. 我不懂书法,故我特别在此刊登一幅他的墨宝的相片,让有识者来品辨. 其三,他有设立基金会的胸怀,把财产的一部分,用在公益事业上. 其四,他的乡情很浓,在斗湖领导建立潮州义山,照顾乡人身后之事.
邱记 Dec 2007

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

刘玉波基金捐一百三十万元作庇中第四期发展经费

上午十时正,刘玉波基金在亚庇玉波大厦,颁发一百三十万元捐款予亚庇中学,充作庇中第四期建校基金.拿督陈沛武代表刘玉波基金颁发,林克光代表亚庇中学接收这项义款.见证人刘玉波基金方面包括我,丹斯里刘玉波的秘书黄玉霞; 庇中方面,有校政委员会主席拿督斯里陈友仁,署理主席也是校友会主席陈雪芳,同乡会联合会代表黄长水,校长,两位副校长,董事吕振胜,黄挺秀,陈俊杰,包望侨 募捐主任拿督黄小娟….我戴两顶帽子:是刘玉波基金董事,也是庇中副董事长.

庇中第四期发展经费约计四百三十万元,有了这一百三十万元,累积筹获经费已达三百三十万元,离目标仅一百万元,应该不是一个难以筹获的数目.如果不是因为丹斯里黄植濂以拿督陈友仁在语言上冲闯了他而撤销已答应由他本人及神山基金局捐献的一百七十五万元,庇中第四期发展经费已全部有着落了.

庇中原本请求刘玉波基金捐助一百万元,并献议为丹斯里刘玉波在校园竖立铜像,且已获同意. 董事黄挺秀建议献议改以大厦命名,得到捐方同意.当拿督刘楚勤局绅获知一栋大厦的建筑费约一百七十万元,政府约津贴四十万元时,他毅然答应拿督陈沛武副董事长,再加三十万元捐款予庇中.这事只有少数人知道,特予记录,以供胡适之博士的徒孙参考.

林克光董事长即席告诉大家,这是他一生第一次收到一笔这么大的捐款,也许也是最后一次.

11/12/2007 邱记

Saturday, December 8, 2007

Me & Mine

These statements describe some aspects of “me” and “mine” the existence of which is of ontological interest with which few cares.

** Seek dynamic balance in Harmony.
** Be happy: ( I knew this as a teenager).
** Humanity- view everything from the point of view of the human race. Not my view, not your (singular) view, nor our (you and I two), but Our (all human beings) view. Start from you and I. Seek for the common and leave the difference. In conflict, look at the interest of the total human race.
** Western philosophy looks outward, Indian inward while Chinese looks closely at the immediate, neither too far outward nor inward. How to integrate them?
** Life-long learning is my norm.
** “Change” is the only constant is not to be viewed as a paradox.
** You don’t prove anything, may be you can’t. Verification Theory has to be replaced with Falsification Theory.
** Newton’s Theory was replaced by Theory of Relativity only because of scope of application but Theory of Relativity can’t reconcile with Quantum Physics. Can String or M-Theory replace or include bothTR and QP?
** At human level, we have yet to solve the mind/body problem. Or is there a clear definition of or distinction between mind and body?
** How can we be sure of our knowledge without solving the mind/body problem? Or even we have solved it, still can we be sure of our knowledge?
** Much as I dislike belief, we can’t live without resorting to belief.
@ I asked, in my childhood, funny questions: if my Dad didn’t marry my Mom, would I be here? I have no answer then and I still don’t have one now, for different reasons, though.
@ Born in a village, as second son of family with 6 boys and one girl in Tawau. Walked then rode bicycle to primary school 2 miles away and rode to junior secondary school 8 miles away. Good exercise.
@ Liked sword fighting story books 武侠连环 图 in primary school and read traditional Chinese story books章回小说。In junior secondary school, read Chinese modern literature of the 1920s and 1930s. In senior secondary school, read widely, including philosophy, psychology and literature. Later in life, added computer, acupuncture and acupressure, qi gong, High Energy physics, Yoga and Consciousness.
@ A crucial moment that changed my life took place in 1963. My teacher Mr. Soo苏子升 advised me to go to Sabah College to study Form six (science). From there, I got Colombo Plan Scholarship to study Engineering and became a Government Engineer; I met many Sabah College schoolmates in the course of my civil service. I also stayed in the hostel for 2 years and learned how to live with students from different races.
@ I didn’t know what Civil Engineering was when I took the course. I have no one then to seek advice from. I was an art student ended up in a science school and Engineering school which required engineering students to take non-engineering subjects: I studied Economics and Psychology for 2 years. They proved to be useful in my working life as an Engineer and manager.
@ My art student background and my reading influence me as an Engineer. When I was Branch Chairman of IEM, I got engineers to write in laymen’s language about engineering. I look upon myself as a human first, then engineer. After all I learn most of the time to be a human and only 4 years of intensive training to be qualified as an engineer. Surely I am more qualified as a human then an engineer.
** There might be exceptional leaders or events that made drastic changes to history, but ordinary people like us individually do not matter as much as in a group or team. We have to be organized and to work in team to be more effective and efficient. In any organization, leadership and management are important. Engineers who head organization or a branch of it must learn to lead and manage.
** Purpose, Process and People are the 3Ps that are important to any organization.
** Purpose is the why and should include vision, mission, objective and function statements etc.
** Process is the How. Methods, procedures, guidelines etc
** Core business has shifted from core products or core services to core processes.
** People include training, communication, and empowerment. Anything related to human resources.
** Training and learning is the two sides of one coin. Life-long learning is the way of life of the new generation professionals.
** Communication is important but difficult. A lot of disputes arise out of nothing but miscommunication or communication breakdown. People who have not attempted to learn and practice effective communication will not understand or believe this.
** The line between public sector and private sector will become blurred.
** ICT and globalization is inevitable. We have to pay a price for it. I prefer localization in globalization.
** Dependence and interdependence to be differentiated. Only people who have learned and practiced independence can be counted on for interdependence.
** Professionals work in Teams and on the move all the time. No permanent job. Good Team players will flourish. If both husband and wife are professionals, they may live separately, and meet elsewhere on weekends. Their parents may be asked to look after their kids. 3 generations under the same roof (三代同堂) is not a bad idea.
** Balance these areas: material gains, physical health, emotional and social well-being, mental and spiritual need. I neglected my physical health for too long and I now regretted it. Too bad it is too late!
** Seek commonality and leave the difference aside for future settlement.
** Ancient Indian: 4 phases in life. 1) Learn to live in this world; 2) live well in this world; 3) learn to live in the spiritual world and 4) teach others to live in the spiritual world.
** Do the right thing at the right time. Keep you mind here and now. Focus on the task at hand.
** Don’t waste energy. Recalling unpleasant past and fantasizing the future are wasteful and may be stressful.

By Hiew 2007

Thursday, December 6, 2007

现代歇后语

李健英,男,三十岁,是本城有名的钻石王老五。健英人如其名,长得健美英俊,而且,人很机警,手腕圆滑,21 岁大学商科毕业后,即从事直销业,几年来,银行户口已长到七位数了。他不但嘴巴甜,出手大方,对女人,不管她是十岁的小女孩,20 岁的少女,和60 岁的祖母级贵妇,都很和善,很亲切。待他有兴趣的对象,更是大方体贴。城里未婚的适婚女士,想嫁给他的不下两打,而已嫁了的,也有几人公然表示恨不相逢未嫁时。其中还有一位甚至表明随时愿为他离婚。可是健英却迟迟不结婚。他的中学同学,除了一位是抱独身主义者外,其他的都结婚了。抱独身主义者,并不是中性人,也不是怕或恨女人的男人。他身边也常有女伴。只是他的人生哲学有点偏,他说:不必为了爱喝牛奶而养只母牛。健英不同。他没抱独身主义,对女性,也没抱“玩玩”之心。他每次爱上一个女孩,都是全心全意的、专一的。但是,这专一总不能持久。好象一朵花,盛开了,就非谢不可。他很少会和一个女孩子恋上半年的。分手后,有的恨他,有的怨他,有的成了他的“兄弟”,或者他变为她们的“姐妹”,有的对他念念不忘。但没有一个会说他的坏话,包括恨他的;也没有一个能和他重拾旧欢。他一直向前,一直有新女友,一直在寻找。但到了三十岁,他还找不到他的婚伴。
他也为此烦恼过。但烦恼归烦恼,碰到漂亮的女人,不管已婚未婚,他又全心全意展开追求了。
一日,在地铁站,他从楼梯口转下来,右眼就先瞄到一位高挑身材,满身发射出智慧与艳丽之光的女孩。他很自然地以十分优美的男士风度走到她身前,使出他最得意、最万无一失的手法,向她展开攻势。从十八岁起,这是他第三次用了这绝招,而前两次,是彻底的成功。这一次,他的信心也十足。他充满了活力,充满了希望,以热忱的眼光,望着她,等待冰山的融化。女的却恰恰相反,把脸冷了下来。健英是老经验,知道凡是能冷对他的,都是惹不得的。每次他都能很得体地自找台阶下台。但这次,他的心却不受控制,还贸贸然冒出一句最不得体的下台词:“对不起,女士,我认错人,我以为是我母亲。” 听了这话,女的不怒反笑,嘴角露出一个令健英三个月后还忘不了的笑容,缓缓地说:“不可能,我已结了婚。“

健英是个脑筋转得极快的人,马上听出了弦外之音,他羞得落荒而逃,平常的仪态,已全丢在九霄云外去了。他逃到一个巨大的有一幅性感美女照片的广告牌下,才定下心来,蹲在地上,两手抱头,自言自语:好家伙,好个“不可能,我已结了婚”,居然骂我是私生子、杂种!。。。。。活该!

(隽野2003年3月)

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Hatha Yoga and Science

This article is dedicated to Hatha Yoga practitioners, students and those who think they want but are unable to learn Hatha Yoga for whatever reasons.

1. Why practice Hatha Yoga? How to practice Hatha Yoga correctly and why Hatha Yoga should be practiced the way it is taught by competent teachers? These are the questions I will try to answer in a simplistic way to the extent I understand the subject. It will be beyond me for more details.

2. Purposes of Hatha Yoga: Practiced correctly, Hatha Yoga has these benefits: Physical Flexibility and Strength, Balance or stability, Awareness of the self at different levels.

3. Hatha Yoga is not a mere physical exercise; it has to be practiced with the Body, Mind and Breath coordinated.

4. Flexibility: stretching muscles increases its suppleness and length, both increases joint flexibility and hence body flexibility. But the speed with which and the extent to which the muscles can be safely stretched have limits. Stretching too fast causes body to stiffen up. Stretching too far causes the muscles to start trembling and resist the stretch. Hence in Hatha Yoga, we stretch slowly to our comfortable capacity and sustain the stretch for a few breaths.

5. Strength: Muscle tone improves when we concentrate on repetitive movements of short ranges of motions.

6. Awareness: Yoga is always practiced with full attention of the mind. Constant observation of the body sensation, habitual postures and movements, habitual exertion, emotional states, breathing pattern, thought patterns in Yoga practice trains the mind for close observation and enables us to know ourselves at different levels of the self and to correct imbalance of our body as well as incorrect postures or practice.

7. Balance: Hatha Yoga exercises are mainly stretching or postures. Postures cause stretching as well as relaxation. Some postures when practiced with mind and breath coordinated, improves body balance not only in the overall frame of the body, but also amongst and within parts of the body. Balance of body depends on, among other things, muscular strength and integrity, nervous conditions which may be affected by emotional states, sensory perception etc.


8. To understand how and why Yoga works, one should recognize that Yoga is a Science. In Yoga, you use your own bodies as the Laboratories and apparatus and your mind as the scientists. You learn to observe yourselves and improve your movements as well as your precision in your observations.

9. So, keep your mind here and now on the space occupied by your body. In the process, you will note that, for example, inhalation assists elevation whereas exhalation assists going into a posture. So, observe carefully the relationship between breath and efficiency of movements and learn to make use of the breath to assist your movements.

10. Shift from one posture to another smoothly and slowly, clearly understanding the entire process. Respect pain and other strong sensations and conditions. Decide to avoid pain, which is a warning sign of impending physical harm or damage.


11. To know scientifically why Hatha Yoga has the benefits described, let us have a brief look at our nervous systems and muscles and their relationship.

12. Central and Peripheral Nervous Systems

a. Central Nervous System: the brain and the spinal cord.
b. Peripheral Nervous System: all other parts of the entire nervous system


13. Central Nervous System can further be divided into
i. Somatic Nervous System and
ii. Autonomic Nervous System

14. Autonomic Nervous System can further be subdivided into
i. Sympathetic Nervous System
ii. Parasympathetic Nervous System
iii. Enteric Nervous System

15. Somatic Nervous System comes under our conscious control. It innervates skeletal muscle and receives sensory information about pain, touch, vision and audition.

16. Autonomic Nervous Systems largely work independent of our will or conscious control or the somatic system. We should not confuse autonomic with automatic. We can breathe automatically by courtesy of our somatic nervous System. The Somatic and the Autonomic Nervous Systems interact with each other and we constantly depend on such smooth interactions.

17. Sympathetic Nervous System arouses and prepares us globally for emergency and is stimulated by stresses. It also quiets down the body latter when it is sedated by breathing or relaxation techniques. The Sun Salutation is a good Hatha Exercise to stimulate Sympathetic Nervous System and Corpse to calm it down.


18. Parasympathetic Nervous System, in contrast, is organ specific and does not work globally. It manages the functions of many internal organs and structures for us at the unconscious level.

19. The Enteric Nervous System is new to many. It supervises the digestion and propulsion of food through the bowel and manages other bowel functions. And it is found to be related to emotional states but not enough is yet known. It is important to relaxation.

20. Neurons: 100 billion in the brain alone. They are the basic structural and functional units of the nervous systems. Neurons have several components. A nucleated cell body that supports growth and development. Cellular extensions that receive and transmit information. There are two types of extensions: dendrites and axons. Dendrites receive information. Axons transmit information in the form of nerve impulses to other sites. There are many dendrites and only one axon per neuron.

21. Three types of neurons are important in Hatha Yoga:

a. Sensory neurons: carry the flow of sensation from the peripheral nervous system to the central nervous system and consciousness.
b. Motor neurons: carry instructions from the brain and spinal cord into the peripheral nervous system and from there to muscles and glands.
c. Inter-neurons: interposed between sensory and motor neurons and transmit our will and volition to the motor neurons.

22. Volition: Actual initiation of the ON and OFF commands from the cerebral cortex and other regions of our Central Nervous System that are responsible for commanding our action.

23. Reflexes are opposed to volition: Reflex is response that bypasses high centers of consciousness, e.g. cerebral cortex. For speedy reaction, the information is passed to the spinal cord and decision is made there without referring to the cerebral cortex. There are dozens of reflexes, three of which are important in Yoga.

24. Myotatic stretch reflex: Better known as knee jerk. They are found all over the body, but especially active in antigravity muscles. They should be minimized to avoid muscle shortening that limits stretch. That is why you move into a posture slowly if your aim is lengthening muscles and increasing flexibility.

25. Clasp knife reflex: Also a stretch reflex. Its end result causes the target muscle to relax rather than contract. Incoming axon does not terminate at motor neuron but at inhibitory interneuron. This reflex can be used to advantage in flexibility exercise.

26. Flexion reflex: This is a kind of Pain reflex. It not only activates flexor muscles but also relax extensor muscles, to make the flexion easy.

27. Muscle movements: By itself, muscle contracts or relaxes. Muscle does not pull itself though it may relax and allows to be lengthened when pulled by an external force. Muscle contracts when the motor neurons impinge impulses on it on command from the Central Nervous System. The strength of the contraction depends on the rate of impulses reaching the muscle. When there is no nervous impulse, the muscle relaxes.

28. In hatha practice, we cause the muscles to shorten or lengthen. Shortening is generally concentric. Concentric shortening takes place when muscle fibers stimulated by nerve impulses responded by the entire muscle shortening. Lengthening, however, is generally eccentric. Whenever a muscle increases in length under tension while resisting gravity by contracting some of its fibers, this is called eccentric lengthening. Note that gravity is an external force that can cause relaxed muscles to lengthen.

29. Stretch receptors are pain receptors found in the bellies of muscles. When muscles are stretched by external forces too fast or too far, the receptors are triggered off and muscles start to contract as a self defense mechanism to resist the stretching which may lead to muscle tear.

30. Isotonic exercise strictly refers to shortening of muscles under a constant load but the term is now used loosely to denote exercises involving movement under moderate or minimal resistance. Raising and lowering a book in your hand repetitively is an isotonic exercise. Isotonic exercise increases strength.

31. Isometric exercise involves holding still under substantial resistance. Holding a book without raising it or allowing it to fall is an isometric exercise of the same muscles. After 15 seconds or so, the stretched muscles start to relax and lengthen if the stretch is within comfortable limits. Otherwise the stretch receptors will be triggered off to resist the stretch.


32. To gain flexibility, you stretch slowly and within your comfortable capacity and sustain the stretch for a few breaths which last for more than the 15 seconds or so required for motor neurons to stop impinging nerve impulses on the muscle tissues concerned thus allowing them to relax and lengthen under the stretch without triggering the stretch receptors or go slowly into a posture which results in a moderate stretch. The individual muscle fibers can growth also in length by the addition of sarcomeres.

33. To gain strength, you have to work up the motor neurons to keep on firing nerve impulses to the muscles tissue concerned to contract the tissues and this can be achieved by repetitive movements of short ranges of motions. The strength of the contraction is proportional to the rate of nerve impulse impinging on the muscle fiber.

34. The above two exercises are done with volition, that is, within the conscious control of your cerebral cortex. What happen if you simply toss your body parts without conscious control? You may activate reflexes which may not work towards your objective. Reflexes are controlled from your spinal cord, not from your cerebral cortex, the higher consciousness.

35. But this does not mean reflexes are always counter productive. Some of them can be productive but you need to select the right ones to activate to your advantage. You must know yourself better and use the knowledge to advance your objectives.

36. Balance requires not only flexibility and strength, but also keen senses and training. Flexibility enables you to arrange your body parts in a balanced architecture, strength allows you to maintain such architecture even under limiting conditions and your senses guide you in doing so and training gives your efficiency in doing so quickly and with little effort.

37. The act of breathing is a somatic act of skeletal muscles. When we breathe consciously, we command from the cerebral cortex; when we don’t, the command shifts to the medulla and pons at the brain stem. These lower centers of respiration manage somatic aspects of breathing automatically.

38. The Sensory limb of Autonomic Nervous System carries information on oxygen and carbon dioxide levels in the blood etc to the respiration centers. This is the important link between Somatic and Autonomic Nervous Systems in respiration. There are also other ways in which breathing is affected by the autonomic mechanisms.

39. Quiet breathing influence the autonomic circuits that slow heart beats and reduce blood pressure, producing calm and sense of balance.

40. To relax, all these aspects must be tackled. First skeletal muscular relaxation, which depends on somatic activities, requires the sympathetic system be quiet down, the parasympathetic system is not busy managing house keeping, the Enteric system is not digesting food or concern with regrets of past, anxiety for future, fear of the unknown or a overly joyful mood of the present.


41. We normally end a Hatha session with Systematic Relaxation in the Corpse. Corpse posture keeps muscles still and allows the motor neurons to stop firing impulses and thus allows the muscles to relax. But muscles can be aroused by mental activity too. Keeping the mind working on simple task focuses it and over time the mind also quiets down.

42. There are obvious warning signs to excess in physical exercises, but not in breathing exercises. The traditional warnings are many. It seems that the rhythm and record of breath resonate throughout the body. It seems to accentuate whatever is in the mind, good or bad.

43. Deep relaxation also should not be overdone. Motor neurons get lazy and you may lose your capacity to control them. Or even worse, you do not get feedback of this happening. Practice relaxation, therefore, not more than twice a day of no more than 20 minutes per session.

By Hiew 2007

Monday, December 3, 2007

沟通难

这是一个很老的故事,许多人都听过,我也听过几次,每次都觉得新鲜可喜。现在来转述一次,听过的读者,请不要浪费你的时间;没听过的,请你记着,以后看过我弄出来的微篇小说而觉得我“不知所谓”时,请记得这则故事,并笑一笑,以增进健康,则功德无量矣。

故事的主角阿牛哥,在山芭渡过童年、小镇念完初中,以后回老家做小生意,因为生意愈做愈大,又从山芭搬到小镇、小镇搬到亚庇来, 是一个成功的商人。阿牛哥搬来亚庇是五年前的事;那时阿牛哥已经四十岁了,但还是时时有疑惑。在亚庇,阿牛哥不再叫阿牛哥,是亚纽哥。一方面是风水,一方面是文化的考量。名一定要正,不然天天给人叫着,不好的名都成了恶咒,那可不是好玩的。而亚纽者,亚洲之枢纽也,而二十一世纪的亚洲,听说是要朝着成为世界经济之枢纽的方向走的,而亚纽正是阿牛的谐音,叫呀叫的,阿牛哥非飞黄腾达不可了。

这可不是乱说的。五年来,阿牛哥,对不起,是亚纽哥,他的财产已增加了三倍,而听说所得税却越付越少。你想知道底细吗?亚纽哥是不会告诉你的,也不会承认有这样的事。

亚纽哥不读哈佛大学讲管理的那一套,因为,第一,他不识多个英文字;第二,他对于他的经验,很有信心。他有他的一套管理学,要不他的生意怎会愈做愈大?邓小平不是说过:“实践是检验真理的最好方法” 吗?他的方法之一是请客吃饭。饭吃得开心,凡事好商量。当然,他不会请我吃饭,因为我对扩大他的生意,不会作出任何贡献。他请吃饭的对象是精挑细选的,而被选中的人,在权、钱和气势上,都要比亚纽哥高一个马头。

那晚,亚纽哥约了陈老板、李师爷(律师)、黄经理和何会计七点半在食为天海鲜酒家的贵宾室吃饭。亚纽哥七点二十分正到达。李师爷七时半准时到,黄经理七点三十五分到,何会计七时四十分到。大家一面喝着啤酒,一面在等陈老板。七时四十五分陈老板还没到。亚纽哥对着他的冒牌 ROLEX瞄了一眼,喝了一大口啤酒,硬生生把喉里什么要升起的东西咽下。大家慢慢地聊、时间慢慢地过。李师爷望向他的手表的眼光,正给亚纽哥捕抓到,他不自觉地扫了他自己的手表一下:七时五十五分。他不自觉地冒出了一句:“怎么该来的还没来!”陈老板是当晚亚纽哥私底下确认的主客嘛。

话刚说完,李师爷站了起来,脸上露出不满之色,喃喃地说:“哦,原来我不该来的却来了!” 于是转身离去。亚纽哥气急败坏,站了起来,想把李师爷拦住。但他坐得离房门最远,而李师爷却坐得最近。亚纽哥才拉开自己的椅子,李师爷已出了房门了。他只好坐下,叹了一口气,又喃喃地说:“唉,不该走的却走了。”
这句话给黄经理听了,好生刺耳,也站起来离去,在门口还丢下一句:“原来该走的是我!”亚纽哥摸不着头脑,望着何会计苦笑。何会计比较知道亚纽哥的为人,知道老李老黄是误会了他。他对亚纽哥的应对能力的不高明,也看到了一点。于是倚老卖老地劝亚纽哥:“老纽,你说话可得小心点嘛,不要开口就得罪人。”亚纽哥好生委屈。我哪里又得罪了他们了?他对何会计说:“我又不是说他们!”
这一说可好了,连何会计也给气走了。临走还留下一句:“原来你说的是我?我还好心劝你呢!”

亚纽哥请的客,该来的未来,不该走的都走光了。他颓废地摊在椅子上,大喊:“伙计!埋单!”

食为天海鲜酒家有个成文的规矩:用贵宾室,结账总数的底价是三百大元。亚纽哥只叫了菜,还没上菜,三瓶啤酒还没喝完,账结下来,还不到四十元。亚纽哥是熟客,柜台不敢作主,只好打电话向老板请示。亚纽哥等得不耐烦,脸渐渐转红,不知是酒精起作用还是血压上升。
(隽野 2003年三月)

Sunday, December 2, 2007

First anniversary out of work

Last year on this day I wrote “first day out of work”. To a certain extent, I was plunging into an unknown after a 32 years employment full of daily routines. I have witnessed friends who enjoyed their first 6 months of retirement and ended up being bored to death after that and either sought for employment or forced themselves to accept a more or less meaningless life of waiting for death to come. I knew their problem was unable to occupy their free time and I was confident I won’t have that problem as I have hobbies that would take up all my free time. I also knew that I needed a routine and that being so, I have prepared a 6 month daily routine in my Outlook Calendar to guide me. After the first 6 months, I modified the routine for another 6 months. It worked quite well. I was following it up to about 90% of the time. I intend to keep modifying it and using it until a new unwritten routine is established for this new phase of life.

In this one year, the most notable difference in my retired life is the absence of mental stress that used to briefly ruin my mind as I got out of bed in the morning thinking I have to face this or that problem that I still have no solution. This absence makes my day more enjoyable and I found myself more looking forward to live the day.

The second obvious difference is I spent more time on physical exercise. I nearly brisk walk 45 minutes in the morning in Tun Fuad Park 5 days a week and walked up and down my staircase for 20 over minutes or do other exercise in the remaining 2 days, including Hatha Yoga. Besides, I conducted 90 minute Hatha Yoga class and 30 minutes group meditation 3 times a week in the HII Centre. With the more regular physical exercises, Hatha Yoga and meditation, which I also do almost daily, my health, despite the fact that age is catching up, has improved. I must have improved my muscles and postures that my back problem has tremendously reduced.

This morning I woke up early as usual, moved my bowel, read the 2 daily papers, have fruits as breakfast, walked up and down the stair for 30 minutes, changed 2 light bulbs, checked one garden tap, took my morning bath, made a few phone calls, including a lunch and afternoon tea appointments with old friends who remember today is my official birth day, wrote some emails, including one to the Mayor, translated one of my Master’s article from English to Chinese, sent a letter I wrote last week to an old friend in Taiwan, attended to the Telekom technicians who came to install my modem for Broad Band internet access which can be considered my birthday present. That took up the whole morning. After the Telekom technicians have left, I left my house to have lunch and afternoon tea with my long time friends who remembered my birthday and bought me birthday cake and Durian Swiss roll. We talked about the good old happy times together, the poor world economic performance and other friends till 4 PM.

In the evening, my wife and I went to the Vegas club to have salmon dinner. We met a former DBKK colleague there who updated me on the latest human resources reshuffle in DBKK.

After dinner I came back to my computer trying to find out what Streamyx (name of the Broad Band service) can offer and what it could not do. Roughly, I found out it could not access NNTP newsgroup, worked intermittently for my Jaring email, and the download transfer rate varied from 40 to 60 Kbps. I tried to modify my email account to make it work, tried to set up a new account for Streamyx service and tried without success to change my password until after mid night.

Looking back, I followed my set routine fairly well, was somewhat behind schedule in my reading of Philosophy, read a few extra books not in my plan, wrote over 15 articles with one published in the Asia Times, visited China once, made several local trips including one to Sukau by boat from Sandakan, visited my children in West Malaysia twice, attended one retreat in Kundazang, gave 2 talks in stress management and a talk on self managed team, spoke on the Gaya Street pedestrian friendly street as a panel member in a Sabah Society public forum, gave a talk to a Rotary Club on the Silk Road tour, have morning or afternoon tea with a few old friends and talked like many other people in the coffee shops. The books I read included such topics as logic, Buddhism, world crisis and novels. Before I started reading history of Philosophy, I have to read logic and philosophy of language as tools. Besides, I did more gardening, composting, bathing the poor dog that we have neglected all the time, upgraded my PC to Pentium 4(2.4GHz) with Windows XP and LCD monitor, have lunch or dinners with former colleagues from JKR and DBKK, gave some advice here and there, attended the Board of Engineer Presidential Consultative Council meeting, accepted the appointment to the Institut Sinaran Board of Governors and chairman of its Building subcommittee responsible for planning the campus while continued to head the school building subcommittee of KK High School which just embarked on a RM 2.7 million IT Centre project. Accepted an interview by a reporter to talk about my life as a civil servant and how KK should be developed. Life is still meaningful, busy but the difference from working life is it is no longer hectic.


By Hiew, 5/6/2003